OSTER project's Twitter
Translations of tweets from @fuwacina. For an archive of other Vocaloid-related Twitters I no longer keep up with, go here.
I'm in my 30's, but I have twintails.
It's been 3 weeks since surgery, but my legs are still numb, so I'll probably have to live with it for life... :eyeroll: Let's stick together for the long haul!!
Because I'm making this song completely for fun, I can stream it and stuff, but also because I'm making this song completely for fun, I'm putting outageous resources into it and getting fussy and dying to death.
When you think something turned out well, you want to play it back over and over, but if you do it too much, you'll get bored of it and not progress at all, and get in a rut, so it's better not to play back too much... Playbacks are like water when you're eating something spicy...
But really, doesn't listening to the same song on streams hundreds or thousands of times get tiring??? I always get tired of it.
It's turning out to be a super wonderful song, so I'll do my best and finish it.
The time I've streamed it alone comes to 12 hours working on it...
The sheer workload of cute big band ain't cute.
Seriously, I work and work on this song, but it's not getting anywhere...
RT @l_verum43 I've long had a strange anxiety about whether the godly composer OSTER-san who wrote the song Chocolate☆Magic that I've loved since the moment it was uploaded 12 years ago, and the Twitter OSTER-san (@fuwacina), are actually the same person. At long last, it's been cleared up. [Links an archive of one of her composing streams]
I'm also doing composing streams to prove my identity!!!
That song whose finishing touches are yet a touch unfinished, Cat and Balloons... On what day will it see the light of day...? :cat: :balloon:
RT @koji_onsensuki If I'm gonna do a hit-and-run guitar solo for OSTER-san's Cat and Balloons, I'd better do it now while I'm immersed in her composing streams... :cat: :balloon:
I Can't Little A English [Screenshot of the Engrish text]
2019: Miracle Point
2020: OSTER Wars ← new
They found oil in my parents' house's garden, so I made a movie!! Thanks in advance!!!!
[Breaking News]
MOVIE CONFIRMED
#AprilFools
A super right-now, in my home far, far away...
OSTER WARS
Episode XXXIX: REVENGE OF THE MIKU
After Supreme Chancellor Fuwacinan won the extremely cruel war of the hernia, she returned to her home. Awaiting her was composition work, and a conflict amongst the singers over who had the right to sing.
With the appearance of the Empire's new automonous android, AI Kiritan, the Vocaloids felt endangered, and began resistance efforts.
Gradually, it escalated into harrassment of Supreme Chancellor Fuwacinan. As Miku-chan triumphantly stuffed her face with the ice cream that Supreme Chancellor Fuwacinan was so looking forward to, the Kiritanpo-saber's blade quietly drew near...
A meccha [super] now in my ouchi [home] far, far away...
OSTER WARS
Episode XXXIX: REVENGE OF THE MIKU
Totemi erai [very big-shot] Fuwacinan won very hard war of hernia returned to ouchi [home] home. Composing sagyo [work] and singers war of darega utauka [who will sing] say okaeri [return] home.
Because of toujoing [toujo = appearance] of new type of sugoi [amazing] android "AI KIRITAN", Vocaloid singers feel kiki [danger] of losing their tachiba [standing].
Finaly [sp] they begin to tsuyoku ataru [strongly lash out] to totemo erai [very big-shot] Fuwacinan. Kiritampo saber is silently approaching to Mikuchan tabechatta [eaten-by-Miku-chan] Fuwacina's very tanoshimi [looked-foward-to] ice cream...
If the world didn't even allow us to laugh, it'd be all over.
For April Fool's, let's tell jokes instead of lies.
Uneasy times are exactly when you want those dear to you as your side encouraging you, so an illness that robs you of even that and eats away at you mentally is too scary... Even the curable starts to feel incurable...
Having surgery and being hospitalized while visiting was forbidden due to coronavirus, then spending a week not meeting anyone cramped behind a curtain, made me experience plenty of loneliness and anxiety. So I'm unbearably aware how hard it is to be kept from meeting those important to you while not even knowing if things will get better... It's painful... I want it to be resolved soon.
"The emptiness of you being gone, I'll fill with my unforgettable memories with you" is too tragic... Why... How could such a thing happen... I'm making a Kaiji face...
Listening to this song at a time when I'm often conscious of people dying, and being separated from those important to me, made me cry enough while driving that I almost couldn't see in front of me, so they should make a law against listening to this song while driving.
Love Song, by Sambomaster
I'm adolescent, so when I take in a love song, it makes me wanna make a love song.
It's kinda depressing thinking how I can only go to the supermarket and the hospital, but in the world of music, I can go anywhere... Way to go...
The early hospital-going girl gets the worm.
I get in the bath with Miku-chan every day. (hallucinating)
Refrain from going out, wash your hands, gargle, and if you have energy left, listen to my songs...
OSTER-san's CD Vol. 2
Thanks for listening lots.
I like doing dumb stuff with full force, so I'm gonna go full force!
I spent all day today on something a little bit stupid. Look forward to it!!
I learned from the East Japan earthquake that the most dangerous thing is for the mood of the world to cause your own cheerfulness to fade, and for that to further infect others around you. That's why I think you need to find enjoyment at times like these, and why I want to provide as much of that as I can to people around me. Let's all overcome it together...
Even so, it's so sad I feel like I'm gonna cry...
With many depressing things happening, now more than ever, I think I need to put in the effort to be cheerful. And thus, tonight I'm having non-essential homecooked yakiniku. :meat:
As someone who consumes pasta by just breathing, I'm extremely concerned about the current shortages... At least inside my house, I want to lead a normal life.
RT @peisuke I'm drinking and watching OSTER's "just making a song" videos, and recoiling at her skill.
Don't recoil, plz...
Me good at digital music.
I'm too fussy to make progress.
I worked hard to make that solo, but it's starting to sound a bit patched-together. (and so the song never gets finished)
Lots of people listening! [to the solo video]
Making music is fun, but painful. :sniffle:
It's hard composing for no audience, so I want a round of applause every time I make a good section.
Even though my favorite music is undoubtedly serious about theory, because of my lousy personality that finds studying it too tedious, I've remained a field-worker and kept persistently doing imitations to arrive at today... I've done good...
I've never played guitar, so I dunno whether or not this solo could be played as it is, and it'd probably be super difficult anyhow.
In terms of tone, I think it's similar to Bathroom Garden, but the world I saw then and the one I can see now are so disparate... In One Piece terms, it feels like I can use my Haki now.
I think I'm doing pretty well for myself for not having theory or a MIDI keyboard. (fierce singing-own-praises)
Huh? Aren't I great at making solos??? #Dominowns
I wanna think there's meaning to the things I've been doing...
I'm depressed. :sniffle:
Doesn't it ever feel like it'll never come to an end??? I'm so praiseworthy for always fighting such prolonged battles on my own...
I'm working so hard, but even after three days, I don't have even a single chorus done. Formidable...
I don't wanna die...
Composition is a life-whittling act.
Maybe it's the low atmospheric pressure, but I'm feeling iffy...
Nerve paaain... :wince:
Feels like "Whoa! Winter's here!"
The cold never bothered me anyway.
Everyone listen.
[VOCALOID] White Snow Falling [Hatsune Miku]
White Snow Falling :snowflake: :snowflake: :snowflake: :snowman: [Due to out-of-season snow in Tokyo.]
I have an idea in my head while I'm making it, so it feels normal to me, but when I watch the archive later, I've got no idea what I'm doing, and it's super scary how just all of a sudden it's a song...
You should know if you've watched my streams, but I really do make songs by clicking with a mouse, so it's time-consuming and a boring environment and not suited for streaming at all, but thanks for coming to watch anyway...
When people catch colds from now on, I wonder if there'll be anyone who goes out of their way to call it "the retro coronavirus"...
They're Amazon-recommended. [Screenshot of four of her own albums - Canned Miku, Attractive Museum, OSTER-san's Best, and Candy Jar Event Horizon - being recommended to her by Amazon.]
[Jun: "Err, do you think Tokyo lockdown is necessary?" [It's necessary / It's not necessary]
She's running a public opinion poll.
I provided the music for a PV of Nagimiso-san's manga Touring Girl!! The song is planned for release later! Thanks in advance. :cherry blossom: :motorcycle: :motorcycle:
Dawn has come, so let's make an announcement.
If lyrics like "even if the world becomes my enemy" never landed for you, from now on you can just imagine the coronavirus.
When C-E-G is playing, if you play it with something else, like D-F-A-B, or some kind of flat, or some kind of sharp, it can sound kinda fancy or sound kinda grimy. Music is fun but tough.
The "skillfully" is the tough part, huh...
I don't know theory, so to explain things super-instinctively: if you skillfully use things other than C-E-G a lot and skillfully combine them with notes at a similar distance, things sound kinda fancy.
What could I possibly teach people...? Is there anything...? Maybe the charms of Rin-chan?
@_ngtr_a There's infinitely many things I'd want Miss OSTER to teach me before chord theory.
If I had 100,000 yen, I'd just buy wagyu beef as normal, so gimme 100,000 yen!!
Maybe you think it's worthless, but people can be driven into a frenzy by the strong impressions words carry after the fact... Can't forget about the Great East Japan Earthquake...
I repeated "wagyu beef" over and over in Tapioca New Year, but for things to take on a different meaning because of societal events... Even if it's an unavoidable incident, it's just sad!! I don't want people to be unable to look at wagyu beef purely anymore!!
I love wagyu beef, so I'm happy to receive it, but sure enough, now's not the time... On the other hand, I don't want wagyu beef to become a victim among this mood of self-restraint and get a negative reputation...
Hearing nothing but coronavirus news is depressing, so let's listen to Tapioca New Year.
I also fail to remember "overshoot" and say "breakthrough," but that's not even remotely close.
I keep forgetting the word "lockdown" and saying "deadlock."
At a time like this, I think it's nice if I can provide people the kinds of Interesting Content that a musician has to offer.
[After doing a music-making YouTube stream:] If you're thinking "Is it okay for me to watch you making music for free?!"...! You're free to pay me for it also, okay?!?!?!?!
The sub-dominant is F, and the dominant is G. If you change key, who knows... (newbie)
Amazing how everyone properly understands music...
Forget it, I'm gonna create by ear! :exploding head: (junk)
It's no good, I can't understand half of what people are telling me... I'm too much of a dummy.
(What was a dominant, again...)
A substitute chord is a substitution dominant... which means... What does that mean?
As such, if there is someone knowledgeable who could explain what techniques make up the progressions I made, I'd like them to explain it to me. (probably wouldn't understand it)
This is really the kind of knowledge I'm working with, which is why I can't answer at all when asked why I went with such and such progression. I'm making by atmosphere...
I kind of get that substitution chords are different chords with similar notes making them up, but I don't know what that applies to or when to use it...
If I may endure my shame to make a confession, I don't know what a substitute chord is.
Lately it feels like I can't regulate my body temperature well... Maybe it's age.
I'm gradually reaching the yuri fandom... Good, good, keep going...
Even if you ask what's wild about them, all I can tell you is that they're wild, but the Kiritan song chords are wild.
Even if you ask how I come up with my chords, all I can tell you is that I come up with them, but the Kiritan song chords are wild.
I knew that the medical expenses limit was monthly, but what I didn't know was that hospitals and outpatient clinics are treated differently... From injections and exams, goodbye 12,000 yen... :flying money: :flying money: :flying money:
I'm doing my best to slowly return to normal life. I even used the kitchen last night and this afternoon. Wanna do something productive today.
Having a hard time getting stamina back after surgery.
Great, eh? [Photos of sakura blooming. The comment is in reference to Day 100 of The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days, where the same comment accompanies a photo of the same thing.]
My surgery wounds are so plump and cute. Hope they disappear soon.
Thinking of it like that kinda makes me want to be a cat, but then I couldn't make music anymore, so as a compromise I'd like to be a furry catgirl.
When there's a real cat mixed in with a bunch of stuffed cats, it's really adorable, but when there's a real person mixed in with a bunch of wax models, it's incredibly terrifying... This world is irrational.
Read up to Volume 8 of Bloom Into You, then listen to this. [Retweets kissing fish]
The five manga that make up Fuwacina-san are:
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
and Bloom Into You!
#TheFiveMangaThatMakeMeUp
Otaku.
Am I an old fogey for wanting to use what I'm used to even if I'd get more modern functionality, because it'd mean having to learn how to use something new?? Well, but I've always been like that... Surprisingly conservative...
Who's still using the Vocaloid 4 editor? This gaaaaaaaaaal!!!!
I wanna see my own works as soon as possible... It whittles away at me, and it's really tiring, but I super love the music I make... That's the feeling I carry on with...
But I want to hear lots of my own sooongs! Let me hear new OSTER-san songs nooooow!!!! No sympathy for you, just make sooooongs!!!! You damn creatooooor!!!!!!
I was thinking I wanted to put out two CDs this year, but between troubles like coronavirus and hernias, I'm already a l-l-little uneasy...
To think I'd see this tag in the Reiwa era...
[Photo of a NicoNico user-added tag for AI Want Your Love! Kiritan: "Scam You Can't Pay For," generally put on things so good you want to give them money] You can pay for it!!!!!!!!! Go right ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please pay me for it!!!!!!!!!
Though even if someone taught you so, you probably wouldn't truly get it until you have a bad experience yourself.
There's always some number of people who want to find fault, and are constantly looking for things to attack. No matter how much of the problem and responsibility lies with the bullies, no matter how faultless the bullied were, ours is a stupidly unreasonable society where you have to avoid getting those people's attention or else, so teach people that in compulsory education.
I used to like it when girls had a half-ponytail, but I'm not sure if I'm that picky anymore. The important part is that it suits you...
[Kuro: "Beer poured from butts onto thighs, half-ponytail beer, nether regions beer... What a wide variety, mya!"]
Drunken merrymaking with female fetishism.
This hernia thing, where the invertebral disk tears and the insides come out, and the treatment is to either endure the pain and wait for it to naturally go back in or get surgery to remove it, and the torn invertebral disk can't be filled anymore so there's always a risk of relapse, it's such a crappy disease, why'd you implement it??? Think of the game balance.
Does the world really need this disease called a hernia?
Don't you periodically have the meaningless worry "If I died now, I wonder what they'd use as my death portrait?"
How many years has it even been since I heard "hustle" used in this context? What an eye-opening thought... I'm gonna cry from remembering that forgotten nostalgia...
Let's protect our good old pervy old guys while paying caution that they don't trouble others.
[Toro: "A proposal, that means "Let's hustle together!", right?"]
A pervy old guy from the Showa era.
Life just goes the way it goes.
[Toro: "I see, meow! Pleasure feels good!"]
Another day.
The potatoes I fried yesterday.
Posted [Supporters Only] That Thing I Made On Stream to Pixiv Fanbox!
I'll put that thing I made on stream yesterday on Fanbox, so give me a second.
Ahh... That was delicious... I'm so happy... I'm regaining all my human rights after hospitalization...
Beef is God's greatest creation.
You too can let OSTER eat food.
Support OSTER project on Pixiv Fanbox!
I can eat this thanks to all your support. [Photo of chateaubriand.]
Everyone gets hurt when heartless things are said to them, and is anxious living day to day, and wants approval from other people. Didn't you learn that in ethics class or somethin'?
There's probably people who think creators are a godlike race separate from humans who live eating mist, with no concept of daily life or emotions... We're all people here.
If you think that way, then just avoid that when you become a creator yourself... Don't you force your own style on others.
I saw someone going on about how creators explaining their work in places separate from said work feels uncouth, so I bet they'd have a fit if they saw my Twitter.
Maybe a day will come when a word with a connection to me (like my name) takes on an altogether different meaning. If that happened, I wouldn't be able to resist the flow of society, so it might be painful... but knowing me, I might also take advantage of it. Heck, I definitely would. Please change it into something easy for me to take advantage of. :folded hands:
Watching as the four characters "AtsuMori" become a word to refer to Animal Crossing [specifically New Horizons - Atsumare Doubutsu no Mori] reminds me of the time "kabedon" became a word to refer to being backed into a wall, and I'm ruminating on the flow of time.
I think not only work relationships, but friendships and romantic relationships, any relationship between people, isn't a holy thing at all, but entirely built upon being win-win. So if things aren't equal, it'll collapse...
I was listening to a friend talk about romance, and we got talking about how there are people who consider the act of confessing your love to be nothing but letting out your feelings and being relieved, and I was like, true... If you're not even bothering to imagine how telling them about your love will affect your relationship and what they'll think, do you really like them? Are you really thinking of them dearly (character limit)
You're free to think what you want in your mind, but the second you put it out there to collide with someone, that creates responsibility! Get that into your heads, humanityyyyy!!!
In the replies to before-after diet photos, I see a bunch of comments like "I like the first one better :smiling sweatdrop:" and I'm like... I don't give a siiiiingle crap about your personal turn-ons or whatever!!! Ask yourself why you're so insenstive and can't understand the beauty of a woman striving to achieve her ideal form, dammiiiiit!!!!!
Lately I've been bawling so much, whether from illness or from gators.
I need to have a strong will not to give in no matter how much illness makes me suffer, or I'll give in.
I'm gonna be like "I don't wannaaa," but my recovery isn't going well again, so I'm calling the hospital today... :halo:
Because of my long time in the hospital, my body's fallen into a schedule of going to sleep early and getting up early...
Somewhere in my heart, I was thinking "don't tell me, he won't actually die?", and I only realized how thoughtless that was after confronting his death. That's why there's no going back.
Just remembering stuff and crying.
When you have that experience of suddenly losing someone you're close with, you really can't see it as something irrelevant to you... Death is a very nearby thing.
:sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:
I'll go out for sushi once the gator dies.
Wonder if I can get YouTube streaming working quick...
But I've been hospitalized for so long, so it was really fun to finally make an opportunity to create a work of my own and have it seen. Even if it was fries. :french fries:
Put a little too much burden on my back. :sweat: I'm resting now...
See, I actually input it all in Domino, right?!
Thank you for watching my guerilla Twitcast! Frying potatoes was fun, lol
[Does a Twitcast stream of making a song in Domino... theoretically? Wasn't able to watch it, but she tweeted something during it about frying some potatoes.]
["CONGRATULATIONS! Cleared Puzzle Level 700!"]
Progress.
??? And here I thought I'd gone through the process of putting in effort, getting my works recognized, and making them into a product enough times in the past 15 years or so to establish my own style, and that we were finally getting into a good era?? :eyeroll:
When I see this kind of thing, it makes me wonder whether there's a notion in the roots of this country, conscious or unconscious, that you should work for free, but not everything's like that, so don't focus on one thing and get pessimistic! Waaaaah! Buy my CDs if you like theeem! (honest)
Eh?! Someone gets popular for drawing a daily manga for 100 days straight, but then they're criticized for making it into a book?! What century are your values from?! Scary!! [Referring to The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days having a book version announced, naturally.]
Yes, seeing a song you don't know just means there's a new song for you to encounter! How wonderful. :heart:
RT @lapis_suzuka I'm sad to learn I'm a total OSTER-san novice... Actually, now I'm looking forward to listening to the songs I haven't encountered, so I'll look them up!
Got 0 bingos and 8 checks on Do You Know OSTER's Songs?! (100%) #MekeponBingo
[Retweets a bunch more attempts, including Usagi with 93%:] If even Usagi-san can't get 100%, no one can... :eyeroll: lol
I made this in such a way that if you're biased to a certain area like Vocaloid only or rhythm games only, you'll never be able to fill it in, so it makes me happy to think how people listen to me as an entire artist... Doing my best...
[After retweeting attempts with 53%, 69%, and 55%:] To see this many people over 50%... :pleading face:
[Retweeting an attempt with 34 checks and 1 bingo:] Huh? Too amazing... You're OSTER...
Also, Happy Flower Shop is really ancient, so even if it is an album song, I'm surprised how well-known it is [50%].
[Picture of the current statistics for which ones people knew] It's super mysterious to me how Dreamy Dream [23%] is even higher than Rabbit Fur [20%], and super surprising how Rainbow Panda is the 32-bit version yet still has a 30% recognition rate... Some interesting stuff going on here.
The bottommost row is brutal, and there's even songs that are not only CD-only, you had to buy the specific item during a limited time to hear them, so yeah.
[Retweeting an attempt with 28 checks but 0 bingos:] (That's still plenty impressive...)
I was honestly pretty mean with this, so I think you're a fanatic if you get even a single bingo.
(Even I forgot how to write some of the titles and had to look them up while making this.)
I'm a fanatic who knew them all. :huff:
Got 16 bingos and 49 checks on Do You Know OSTER's Songs?! (100%) #MekeponBingo
I made an incredibly advanced-level bingo.
Do You Know OSTER's Songs? #MekeponBingo
| Alice in Musicland | Tokimeki * Reverie | Napo-Naporitan Match | bistro twins ☆☆☆ | Meteor Drive | Dramatic Parade | Rabbit Fur |
| Dreamy Dream | The Fox's Wedding | Labradorite | Rainbow Panda (32-Bit Full Color Mix) | Give This Relation A Name | Replica | Music Like Magic! |
| Orange Carnival | Recursive Function | VOC@LOID in Love | trick and treat | Sicilian Sun | Bitter Myself | Looking Glass Rendezvous |
| Evening Moon Diva | back into my world | Ciel Bleu Marché | Miracle Paint | Spring-Loaded Love Game | Confeito and Weather | Sunset's Truth |
| Chocolate ☆ Magic | HAPPY FLOWER SHOOOOOP!! | Selfish Sweet | Second Piercing | Rainbow World | Stray Cat and Autumn Sky | Miracle Point |
| demon fire | Please shining☆star | Between the Sheets | The One Who Rules Fear | Passenger Seat Road Movie | Log-In Bonus | Moon Rabbit |
| Dance in the Fleeting World | Galaxies on Parchment | Cold Warmth | Elise Wonder Cooking | Sakutto KOMACHI | Transient Fortress | La Baguette Magique |
G'morning. :cat:
[Jun: "Huh, is that right, hop... OSTER, you really must like the taste of kisses, huh?"]
I'm being shamed.
I've been fighting this for half a year straight, and I don't want to be endlessly hurting like this forever even after I got brave... I'll fight it throoughly, so you better be ready.
I'm thinking a bunch about what I'll do if I have to get surgery again. :drool: (my legs hurt)
The gator dies tomorrow.
CoCo Ichibanya Level 8 Spice is godly... The balance of everything is perfect.
I'm able to eat this thanks to all your support. :curry and rice: [Photo of curry]
I had curry for lunch, so for dinner, it's curry.
[Toro, talking to Hello Kitty: "Huh, Kitty's mom's apple pie... Toro'd like to eat it too, meow."]
Because of how my Toro usually is, I can't read this in a pure way and it's making me concerned.
Seriously, it ain't no time for me to be having surgeries and stuff! I could've used that money to have live instruments!! You lousy piece of junk body!!
I like live instruments, and I've put a lot of time and money into making my MIDI sound live, but I feel like it'll never be a match for live recording... It's an obvious fact, but all I can do is improve my MIDI-ing skills to do it in an entirely self-contained way with my ideal synths... I want oil to suddenly gush out and bless me with enough funds to do live recordings for life...
When I listen to a lot of good songs, I recognize once more how I have way too many goals I want to level up to achieve before I die... Gotta level up quick, or I'll die first.
I want to hold a detailed presentation on my favorite songs...
When I encounter a song that's just too amazing, I go right past "I want to make songs like this" and think "I want to be a song like this." I'll live as this song...
What's it called... Arabic scale, or melodic minor scale? The way it weaves everything together is so sublime. The impression it gives of light shining among darkness, the feeling that if you expressed the word "backlight" with sound, it'd probably sound like this, is so amazing it makes me wanna cry.
When I heard Maaya Sakamoto-san's Backlight for the first time, I was so stimulated that I looped it about three times and laughed the whole time. (deranged)
When I find a song like this, I'm laughing up a storm in a super loud voice, and from an outsider's perspective I look completely insane.
I swear there are also plenty of songs that make me go "I can't, I love this!!!!!!" without being messy and constantly doing weird stuff.
I like this song of Mika Nakashima-san's a lot too... Too cute...
Mika Nakashima's "Fall In Love"
Because of my mysterious strong fixation on chord progressions, it's not often I encounter a song I can get extremely into, though that makes it all the more intensely moving when I encounter a song that goes far beyond my own expression, but still...
Isn't the hypermetric-y guitar that eats into the start of the second verse so wildly freeform??? I want to express myself like this...
I want to be able to make lethally amazing songs...
I'll say it again and again, but this song is lethally amazing, so I want you to listen to it.
Mika Nakashima's "LOVE NO CRY"
The gator's gonna die. [1 day left in The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days. (Or 2 days, since Day 99 wasn't posted until later in the day.)]
Jazz, pop, rock 'n' roll
Latin, ballad, future bass
Sounds played in a variety of genres
Complex harmonies and super-active bass
OSTER songs are great
(video clips of nuns singing gospel)
I guess I'll try sitting in front of a computer for a bit today?
Looking at the "motsu" in motsunabe [giblets/innards] and thinking of my removed hernia.
Dinner was the motsunabe I got from my wishlist... :licking lips: Thank you!
You can listen to all sorts of artists with subscriptions now, and I'm looking up tons of songs I loved to death around high school, and I'm LOLing at how good my tastes have always been. (fierce singing-own-praises)
Isn't "an invisible apron fluttering, preparing for magic" such a super cute lyric???
You can even listen to the full version!!!
[maimai Deluxe PLUS] Ciel Bleu Marché / OSTER project feat. Kanatan [Coming 3/19 (Thurs.)!!]
Walking feels super good, I'm happy...
I started doing proper lyrics once I started doing Vocaloid songs, and I've delved into my own lyrical world in the 13 years since, so I'm really glad to have reached a point where someone needs them from me... I want to keep on doing my best with songs and lyrics!
I think this might be my first time providing just lyrics!! I'm really happy... :crying: :heart:
[Announcement] I provided the lyrics for Macaron Love, a song on Nanaka Suwa-san's debut album So Sweet Dolce releasing 4/15! :cake: :chocolate: :donut: :candy: :cookie: :sprarkles: The composition is by hisakuni-san! Thanks in advance. :bowing woman:
You can listen to the song here. :heart:
[Retweets official maimai Twitter. YouTube / NicoNico]
[Announcement] I provided the original song Ciel Bleu Marché for ongoing rhythm game maimai Deluxe PLUS! :apple: :eggplant: :carrot: :broccoli: :onion: :sparkles: With vocals by Kanatan!! It's a super cute song, so please play it! :heart:
S'okay if I make an announcement?!
My legs still hurt today, but it's better if I move them, so I'll go for a walk.
Today's lunch is the soup curry I received. :licking lips:
I put my removed hernia on display next to my Nanachi figurine. (delirious)
Ordered an Airweave mattress.
This cushion is super nice! My back muscles can streeetch... I'm grateful.
Happy hospital release!!! A lot of stuff arrived!! Thank you!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :folded hands: :folded hands: I'll live!! [Photo of a bunch of the food gifts.]
I'm pitiful, so even at my age I'm quick to cry, and act spoiled, and go like "I don't wannaaa," but I want to carry out the things I should do regardless and keep things in balance...
It's really hard being forced into various efforts when you're just living, and if cursing someone or something would improve the situation, I'd gladly do it. But that won't help me one bit, so the most efficient thing's to calmly do what I can one thing at a time...
But I'm glad I was finally able to sleep soundly in my own bed... Thank you for your many replies. A lot of food from my wishlist had arrived when I got home, so I'll get to that later.
You should know if you read it, but it hasn't really been a complete recovery, and I'm still hurting and sleeping... :sniffle: Get better already...
I've learned just how tricky hernias are even with medical advances... I wonder, is it not possible in practice to fill up the gap in the invertebral disk itself? :sniffle: Super scared of a relapse...
Progress on my life.
Posted [Public Post] Leaving Hospital Report to Pixiv Fanbox!
This morning, I was safely released from the hospital. :tada:
I worried a great many of you, but I'm alive. Even though hernias aren't necessarily life-threatening...
To sum up the surgery I had, it was harsh, with me having a second surgery the very same day. A new hernia appeared in the same place as the extracted hernia, which was the cause of the further pain I felt.
I've left the hospital now, but the nerve pain throughout my entire left leg has been getting stronger since even before the first surgery, and it feels like numbness was added on top of that. :crying: It's been numb, so I'm uneasy...
Given this situation, there's still a ways to go before I can say "I've had a complete recovery!", but...
- Quite a lot of the hernia was already removed in the second surgery
- There are limits to how much it can stick out, so even if there is a relapse, it shouldn't put as much pressure as before
- Because of this, what's causing my current pain very likely isn't pressure from a reappeared hernia, but nerve inflammation from the intense pressure of the relapse following the first surgery (so once the inflammation gets better, it's possible the pain will go away)
Even if I could view it as the symptoms themselves getting worse, this is the progress I've made by way of surgery, possibilities I wouldn't have gotten if I hadn't undergone it. I'll stay positive. And if the pain doesn't go away, I'll think about that then!
% chance of suffering from a hernia
% chance of things going bad and having to get surgery
% chance of relapse immediately after surgery
Honestly, there's been a lot of times I've thought "why am I losing every probability and having to go through this?", but sighing about it won't change the fact that it happened, so whatever situation I end up in, all I can do is my very best in that moment. Oh well.
I'm anxious about the current situation, but there's no such thing as a person without anxieties. Everyone has the chance of something improbable happening to cause them misfortune. You could suddenly get sick, you could get in an accident, you could lose your job. I'm sure everyone's anxious. But we do our best and live. Living means walking with a lot of anxieties, but I'll believe there's something to be gained every time I overcome one, and keep doing what I can.
Hernias aren't over and done with after surgery, and measures to prevent a relapse like daily posture correction, physical training, and staying flexible are essential, apparently. The risk is especially high for about the first six months, so I'll have to start putting in new efforts every day. But if that's what's possible for me to do, I just have to do it!
I'm truly grateful to everyone's encouragement and support through this. Not to let down your many hopes, I'll do my best in my life ahead, self care included. Onward to complete recovery!! :sunglasses:
Made it back home with ASIMO-level walking ability... Exhausted.
It's exuding a flavor!!! It's flavor!!!!!!
Welcome back, flavor!!!!!!!!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:
Going outside after so long, my head's spinning from information overload.
Discharged. :tada:
When I went on a hot springs trip, too, I thought about how taking a trip there was a special event for me, but just daily life for the people working at the resort. Makes me think how everyone has their own life, and how absurd the volume of all the world's information is.
A cycle of hospitalizations to discharges... What's out of the ordinary for me is ordinary life for medical professionals.
I'm not an advanced creature, so I can't get around to being concerned with things in worlds I can't observe, and so while I'm alive, I want to feel good a lot.
After 100 years, everyone dies. Does that mean there's no point to anything you do, or is that why you should think it's fine to do whatever you like without fear? The longer you live, the more you realize what's important is feelings.
Want to become optimistic.
Today's.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 5 to Pixiv Fanbox!
Your normal way of living unknowingly ingrains itself into your body. When I see some kind of shape moving, I naturally think "there's a cat there." There are no cats here.
On the fifth day of hospitalization, I've learned to not talk to myself, but I'm being released tomorrow.
I personally don't desire to be famous, as all I want is for my songs to be listened to a lot, but I guess I probably have to aim to be a certain level of famous for that.
Wanna cut my bangs.
Please fix the human body bug where the burden on your back when sitting is 1.4x what it is when you're standing. They clearly messed something up with the balancing.
I was in the middle of appealing to entertainment, but they called me for a CT scan. Here I go.
Both serious things and stupid things, I wanna do with full force! I love entertainment!! Entertainment!! It's meeeee!!! Smile at meeeee!!!
I'm sure no matter how much experience I amass and how much I grow, I'll always have goals and things I want to do ahead of me, and always think of myself as inexperienced, but still, I want to think in the end "I did all I could in my inexperience," right?
Someday I wanna be able to treat everyone else to chateaubriand...
As such, I'll post the video!!!
OSTER project - AI Want Your Love! Kiritan feat. AI Kiritan
As a composer, I secretly hope for the day to come that I can say "This song everybody knows is MY song!" (whether I'd say that or not aside) I want the Kiritan song to suddenly get 5 trillion views and YouTube to send me 50,000 solid gold shields.
When people ask what sorta stuff I'm doing, I'm always unsure how to answer. (I say it often has to do with games and so on.)
I guess being a musician is a unique occupation after all... People are surprised when I talk about it.
Since they put a respirator on you after surgery, your voice gets hoarse. That's harsh too.
I'm just constantly worrying about my neighbor here.
My neighbor came back... I wonder if everything went okay?
I had an awful time myself, so I'm going and getting concerned for them.
Finally time for my neighbor's operation... Be on your way... :crying:
Wonder if soaking in vinegar [o-su] would soften my body... Huh? Then I'd be O-SU project... Never mind.
Thinking about it, since I've spent most of my life with back pain, I always avoided excessive bending of my body due to fearing getting back pain, which probably made my body stiffen all the more.. What should I do now...?
I've always had bad posture, and my body is desparately stiff, so if I don't change those root issues, I'll likely have an unhappy life... Just living is tough, but there's so much I need to work hard at...
Yoshimura-san (not actually Yoshimura-san) told me I should really be careful about desk work for a while, so maybe I should force limits on my consecutive work hours... Set a timer or something. People who make music know how incredibly unproductive it is to limit your time and take a break when you're in the groove, but I can't go saying that... :pensive face:
Actually, most welcomely, there is someone giving chateaubriand [5000 yen/month], yet no sirloins as of yet. I suppose they're a very generous person who figured if they're going up to sirloin, they might as well go to chateaubriand... :pleading face: Thank you... :bouquet:
If I gain 10 cafe lattes [300 yen/month], that's a sirloin [3000 yen/month]. I gained a lot of cafe lattes. Thank you. :folded hands:
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The kid next to me's surgery is in the afternoon... I hope they'll do their best.
Taking a shower made me really tired... It's hard labor, that.
Today, I can take a shower.
This ordinary man in my rehab info sheets looks a lot like Yuyuuta-san.
A physiotherapist who looks like Takashi Yoshimura told me my body's way stiff for how young I am, and said at this rate, I'd get back pain for a different reason...
Thank you to everyone who's given their support for my hospitalization diaries. I'll buy a spare corset.
Even if I'm anxious, I just have to simply do the most I'm able to do, so it's the same as life, right?!
Uneasy about my hurting legs this morning. :pleading face:
Today's.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 4 to Pixiv Fanbox!
I am concerned about the numbness I can't get rid of in my legs...
A plain old pervert if you just look at Twitter.
RT @hiroys_milkcafe OSTER Project, Fuwacina-san. The Vocaloid producer I aspire to the most. If you just look at Twitter, she's a plain old pervert, but the songs she makes are fun and beautiful, and it's one of my goals to be someone who can express themselves like this.
[Kagamine Rin] The Fox's Wedding [Original Song]
My body is recovering smoothly. I wanna be released quick, but I can't be hasty... I need to be careful to avoid a relapse after being let out, too. Truly regrettable.
Gave up.
I can't make music without Dominooooo!!
Ah, maybe I can just use this phone to make music? lol
Periods like this of getting your health sorted out are absolutely necessary for the future, and that's how I made up my mind to do it, and I know this couldn't be avoided, but maybe I just plain get impatient with myself when I'm not creating something. Not to say I'm so admirable or anything; I think I use that as an emotional foundation.
I absolutely can't ignore the existence and voices of people who need me even as I am, so I've gotta do my best until I can proudly stick out my chest as myself again. Taking care of health included.
Gotta properly make music again...
It's not like the world is waiting for me or anything, but what's with this scary feeling of being left behind by the world...
I got an explanation of what to do after leaving the hospital, and I have to spend the next three months post-surgery doing impersonations of Motoya Izumi.
I think this kid who moved into my room is having the same operation I did... Please... Please go well... Don't end up like me...
Got permission to wash my hair, too! Victory is mine.
Got all the tubes taken out of my bodyyy!
[Good News] The first breakfast in 24 hours has arrived. The day's first outstanding achievement.
:sniffle:
I wanna go home.
Even 300 or 500 yen is fine, so please... But of course, 5000 yen would also be fine!!!! (forceful)
This series is ultra-realistic, so I think it's a compelling read. (fierce singing-own-praises)
This stuff is way too unordinary to tag as "Daily Life," surely? (late realization)
The part covering today.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 3 to Pixiv Fanbox!
I'm totally forgetting how I normally moved...
Finally succeeded at acting independently without a walker. My greatest achievement in 2 days.
I've been in the hospital on both White Day and Valentine's. :heart:
While holding in a sneeze to protect my wounds, I bent all my sore muscle spots and died.
I'm so lacking in amusement, the mere phrase "Opperman says" [looks a bit like "Oppaiman" (Boobsman) in Japanese] in an article about goats climbing cliffs is making me laugh uncontrollably. (Don't laugh at people's names.)
I wanna be healthy...
Because I'm moving my body carefully to protect the parts that hurt, I've got muscular pain all over... The battle continues. But actually, it hasn't even been 24 hours since the second surgery... You're kidding, right? Time feels endless...
[Toro, Sora, and three humans all saying the same thing: "Hundred-Crack Fist of the Deep Kiss!"]
Party animal get-togethers are too scary.
Why's there so much rice in hospital food?! It's a rice festival!
I'm a scientific person lacking in sensitivity, so when I hear the lyric "as many people as there are stars," I can't resist going like "there ain't THAT many!"
Another day OSTERing for an empty audience.
Having high hopes for the potential of my future health. (optimistic)
It's not coronavirus, but since I had surgery, I've got a fever.
I want a nurse who, if I said "If I used a walker, I bet I could go all the way to Proxima Centauri," would tell me "Hey now, let's shoot for around Mars first, okay?"
Hold on, by "it's snowing," you mean in Tokyo?!
The part covering yesterday, surgery day.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 2 to Pixiv Fanbox!
I was by myself in a big room, but two new girls who look like they play sports moved in... They're probably feeling uneasy not being allowed chaperones because of coronavirus, but they're hanging tough... Meanwhile, I, age 33, cried out "Thank you so much :crying: :crying: :crying:" in the operating room immediately after my re-operation was over.
For being able to go potty by myself the same day I started walking, I'm far superior to a baby.
It huuurts...
I'm a 3-year-old baby, so I want to be praised just for going potty on my own.
I'm scared of suddenly getting up, so I'm gradually raising the bed, like TORE. [Japanese game show where contestants are slowly wrapped like mummies from bottom to top.]
After last night's operation, they're like, can you eat breakfast already...? Can you walk already...? But I'm doing my best... I'm gonna recover...!
I've been in bed for a day and half now, so sure enough, my body's starting to ache... But my legs don't hurt! It's a wonderful thing for my legs not to hurt...
I never want to have surgery twice in one day again, but I'm really glad... :sniffle: It was a long battle... :sniffle: It'll continue on, but I'll do my best until I can be released. :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:
I did it... I was anxious the whole time... I was so relieved when the surgery was over and the pain had completely gone that I cried... I'm glad I did my best... :crying:
I'm baaaaack!! It was fixed this time!!!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:
Here I go!
Don't tell me, the no-audience surgery has a day and a night showing? lmao
Not yet, lol
Here I gooo!
And I mean, the worst of the post-surgery pain was the pain from the newly-appeared hernia, so I think I'll be able to endure with that gone!! Right!
I'm totally thinking "Why me?!", but that won't do any good now that it's happened, so I'll just do what I must to get better...
If I've done it once, I can do it again! It's okay!
Can't I, you know, win the lottery or something...? :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:
Why the heeeeeck... :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: Why've I gotta be super lucky about getting incredibly rare conditions and stuff?!?!?! lololol
So here I go agaaain... :halo:
That Time Removing A Hernia Made A Hernia Show Up And I Had To Get Surgery Again
Not really progressing the best, so having an MRI. :crying:
LOLing at how when the lady comes to my room now, her greeting is like "Heyooo!"
I don't learn, so for a repeat attempt, when she asked "You didn't apply any alcohol, did you?", I said "It's all good! I prefer to drink alcohol!", but I had bad timing and couldn't get her to pick it up... Our comedy duo's done for...
Some strong painkillers kicking in made me feel better, but thinking about how that terrifying pain might return when they wear off, I asked when I could use another round of painkillers. I did get the answer, but they basically told me it won't help to get too frightened, so just enjoy the time you can spend comfortably now, and good luck! So I'm gonna enjoy it. Boobs.
It was my bad, okay... Forgive me...
The nurse seems like she might be from Kansai, and has a nice energy when she talks, so when she asked "Is there anything you want?", I got a little silly and replied "Warmth..." Then it suddenly got like "Huh? Look, enough of that...", and I felt like I was gonna die.
But for real, I'm worried about how much areas that weren't operated on are hurting, but I did tell them about it, so now I just have to endure... Gotta believe.
When they ask me to rate my pain from 1 to 10, I want to say "5 gazillion!!", but I'm an adult, so I said 8.
I got a message and thought someone was checking in on me, but it was a notice about the Sushiro fair.
I can endure a little pain just fine.
The post-operation pain itself isn't as bad as I expected as long as I'm resting, but for some reason my legs reached maximum pain, and I thought they were getting cut off... (It's settled down now thanks to painkillers.)
Since before I even woke up from anesthesia, AI Want Your Love Kiritan has been playing in my head. Kiritan was protecting me. (??)
I'm alive... Hello.
reboot...
It's very soon.
The IV going in suddenly adds a lot to the "being a patient" feel...
I keep on saying "I'll do my best!", but it's the surgeons who are gonna do their best!!!
I slept soundly!