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March 24th, 2020

Read up to Volume 8 of Bloom Into You, then listen to this. [Retweets kissing fish]

The five manga that make up Fuwacina-san are:
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
Bloom Into You
and Bloom Into You!
#TheFiveMangaThatMakeMeUp

Otaku.

March 23rd, 2020

Am I an old fogey for wanting to use what I'm used to even if I'd get more modern functionality, because it'd mean having to learn how to use something new?? Well, but I've always been like that... Surprisingly conservative...

Who's still using the Vocaloid 4 editor? This gaaaaaaaaaal!!!!

I wanna see my own works as soon as possible... It whittles away at me, and it's really tiring, but I super love the music I make... That's the feeling I carry on with...

But I want to hear lots of my own sooongs! Let me hear new OSTER-san songs nooooow!!!! No sympathy for you, just make sooooongs!!!! You damn creatooooor!!!!!!

I was thinking I wanted to put out two CDs this year, but between troubles like coronavirus and hernias, I'm already a l-l-little uneasy...

To think I'd see this tag in the Reiwa era...

[Photo of a NicoNico user-added tag for AI Want Your Love! Kiritan: "Scam You Can't Pay For," generally put on things so good you want to give them money] You can pay for it!!!!!!!!! Go right ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please pay me for it!!!!!!!!!

Though even if someone taught you so, you probably wouldn't truly get it until you have a bad experience yourself.

There's always some number of people who want to find fault, and are constantly looking for things to attack. No matter how much of the problem and responsibility lies with the bullies, no matter how faultless the bullied were, ours is a stupidly unreasonable society where you have to avoid getting those people's attention or else, so teach people that in compulsory education.

March 22nd, 2020

I used to like it when girls had a half-ponytail, but I'm not sure if I'm that picky anymore. The important part is that it suits you...

[Kuro: "Beer poured from butts onto thighs, half-ponytail beer, nether regions beer... What a wide variety, mya!"]
Drunken merrymaking with female fetishism.

This hernia thing, where the invertebral disk tears and the insides come out, and the treatment is to either endure the pain and wait for it to naturally go back in or get surgery to remove it, and the torn invertebral disk can't be filled anymore so there's always a risk of relapse, it's such a crappy disease, why'd you implement it??? Think of the game balance.

Does the world really need this disease called a hernia?

Don't you periodically have the meaningless worry "If I died now, I wonder what they'd use as my death portrait?"

How many years has it even been since I heard "hustle" used in this context? What an eye-opening thought... I'm gonna cry from remembering that forgotten nostalgia...

Let's protect our good old pervy old guys while paying caution that they don't trouble others.

[Toro: "A proposal, that means "Let's hustle together!", right?"]
A pervy old guy from the Showa era.

Life just goes the way it goes.

[Toro: "I see, meow! Pleasure feels good!"]
Another day.

March 21st, 2020

The potatoes I fried yesterday.
Posted [Supporters Only] That Thing I Made On Stream to Pixiv Fanbox!

I'll put that thing I made on stream yesterday on Fanbox, so give me a second.

Ahh... That was delicious... I'm so happy... I'm regaining all my human rights after hospitalization...

Beef is God's greatest creation.

You too can let OSTER eat food.
Support OSTER project on Pixiv Fanbox!

I can eat this thanks to all your support. [Photo of chateaubriand.]

Everyone gets hurt when heartless things are said to them, and is anxious living day to day, and wants approval from other people. Didn't you learn that in ethics class or somethin'?

There's probably people who think creators are a godlike race separate from humans who live eating mist, with no concept of daily life or emotions... We're all people here.

If you think that way, then just avoid that when you become a creator yourself... Don't you force your own style on others.

I saw someone going on about how creators explaining their work in places separate from said work feels uncouth, so I bet they'd have a fit if they saw my Twitter.

Maybe a day will come when a word with a connection to me (like my name) takes on an altogether different meaning. If that happened, I wouldn't be able to resist the flow of society, so it might be painful... but knowing me, I might also take advantage of it. Heck, I definitely would. Please change it into something easy for me to take advantage of. :folded hands:

Watching as the four characters "AtsuMori" become a word to refer to Animal Crossing [specifically New Horizons - Atsumare Doubutsu no Mori] reminds me of the time "kabedon" became a word to refer to being backed into a wall, and I'm ruminating on the flow of time.

I think not only work relationships, but friendships and romantic relationships, any relationship between people, isn't a holy thing at all, but entirely built upon being win-win. So if things aren't equal, it'll collapse...

I was listening to a friend talk about romance, and we got talking about how there are people who consider the act of confessing your love to be nothing but letting out your feelings and being relieved, and I was like, true... If you're not even bothering to imagine how telling them about your love will affect your relationship and what they'll think, do you really like them? Are you really thinking of them dearly (character limit)

You're free to think what you want in your mind, but the second you put it out there to collide with someone, that creates responsibility! Get that into your heads, humanityyyyy!!!

In the replies to before-after diet photos, I see a bunch of comments like "I like the first one better :smiling sweatdrop:" and I'm like... I don't give a siiiiingle crap about your personal turn-ons or whatever!!! Ask yourself why you're so insenstive and can't understand the beauty of a woman striving to achieve her ideal form, dammiiiiit!!!!!

Lately I've been bawling so much, whether from illness or from gators.

I need to have a strong will not to give in no matter how much illness makes me suffer, or I'll give in.

I'm gonna be like "I don't wannaaa," but my recovery isn't going well again, so I'm calling the hospital today... :halo:

Because of my long time in the hospital, my body's fallen into a schedule of going to sleep early and getting up early...

March 20th, 2020

Somewhere in my heart, I was thinking "don't tell me, he won't actually die?", and I only realized how thoughtless that was after confronting his death. That's why there's no going back.

Just remembering stuff and crying.

When you have that experience of suddenly losing someone you're close with, you really can't see it as something irrelevant to you... Death is a very nearby thing.

:sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:

I'll go out for sushi once the gator dies.

Wonder if I can get YouTube streaming working quick...

But I've been hospitalized for so long, so it was really fun to finally make an opportunity to create a work of my own and have it seen. Even if it was fries. :french fries:

Put a little too much burden on my back. :sweat: I'm resting now...

See, I actually input it all in Domino, right?!

Thank you for watching my guerilla Twitcast! Frying potatoes was fun, lol

[Does a Twitcast stream of making a song in Domino... theoretically? Wasn't able to watch it, but she tweeted something during it about frying some potatoes.]

["CONGRATULATIONS! Cleared Puzzle Level 700!"]
Progress.

??? And here I thought I'd gone through the process of putting in effort, getting my works recognized, and making them into a product enough times in the past 15 years or so to establish my own style, and that we were finally getting into a good era?? :eyeroll:

When I see this kind of thing, it makes me wonder whether there's a notion in the roots of this country, conscious or unconscious, that you should work for free, but not everything's like that, so don't focus on one thing and get pessimistic! Waaaaah! Buy my CDs if you like theeem! (honest)

Eh?! Someone gets popular for drawing a daily manga for 100 days straight, but then they're criticized for making it into a book?! What century are your values from?! Scary!! [Referring to The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days having a book version announced, naturally.]

Yes, seeing a song you don't know just means there's a new song for you to encounter! How wonderful. :heart:

RT @lapis_suzuka I'm sad to learn I'm a total OSTER-san novice... Actually, now I'm looking forward to listening to the songs I haven't encountered, so I'll look them up!
Got 0 bingos and 8 checks on Do You Know OSTER's Songs?! (100%) #MekeponBingo

[Retweets a bunch more attempts, including Usagi with 93%:] If even Usagi-san can't get 100%, no one can... :eyeroll: lol

I made this in such a way that if you're biased to a certain area like Vocaloid only or rhythm games only, you'll never be able to fill it in, so it makes me happy to think how people listen to me as an entire artist... Doing my best...

[After retweeting attempts with 53%, 69%, and 55%:] To see this many people over 50%... :pleading face:

[Retweeting an attempt with 34 checks and 1 bingo:] Huh? Too amazing... You're OSTER...

Also, Happy Flower Shop is really ancient, so even if it is an album song, I'm surprised how well-known it is [50%].

[Picture of the current statistics for which ones people knew] It's super mysterious to me how Dreamy Dream [23%] is even higher than Rabbit Fur [20%], and super surprising how Rainbow Panda is the 32-bit version yet still has a 30% recognition rate... Some interesting stuff going on here.

The bottommost row is brutal, and there's even songs that are not only CD-only, you had to buy the specific item during a limited time to hear them, so yeah.

[Retweeting an attempt with 28 checks but 0 bingos:] (That's still plenty impressive...)

I was honestly pretty mean with this, so I think you're a fanatic if you get even a single bingo.

(Even I forgot how to write some of the titles and had to look them up while making this.)

I'm a fanatic who knew them all. :huff:
Got 16 bingos and 49 checks on Do You Know OSTER's Songs?! (100%) #MekeponBingo

I made an incredibly advanced-level bingo.
Do You Know OSTER's Songs? #MekeponBingo

Alice in Musicland	Tokimeki * Reverie	Napo-Naporitan Match	bistro twins ☆☆☆	Meteor Drive	Dramatic Parade	Rabbit Fur
Dreamy Dream	The Fox's Wedding	Labradorite	Rainbow Panda (32-Bit Full Color Mix)	Give This Relation A Name	Replica	Music Like Magic!
Orange Carnival	Recursive Function	VOC@LOID in Love	trick and treat	Sicilian Sun	Bitter Myself	Looking Glass Rendezvous
Evening Moon Diva	back into my world	Ciel Bleu Marché	Miracle Paint	Spring-Loaded Love Game	Confeito and Weather	Sunset's Truth
Chocolate ☆ Magic	HAPPY FLOWER SHOOOOOP!!	Selfish Sweet	Second Piercing	Rainbow World	Stray Cat and Autumn Sky	Miracle Point
demon fire	Please shining☆star	Between the Sheets	The One Who Rules Fear	Passenger Seat Road Movie	Log-In Bonus	Moon Rabbit
Dance in the Fleeting World	Galaxies on Parchment	Cold Warmth	Elise Wonder Cooking	Sakutto KOMACHI	Transient Fortress	La Baguette Magique

G'morning. :cat:

March 19th, 2020

[Jun: "Huh, is that right, hop... OSTER, you really must like the taste of kisses, huh?"]
I'm being shamed.

I've been fighting this for half a year straight, and I don't want to be endlessly hurting like this forever even after I got brave... I'll fight it throoughly, so you better be ready.

I'm thinking a bunch about what I'll do if I have to get surgery again. :drool: (my legs hurt)

The gator dies tomorrow.

CoCo Ichibanya Level 8 Spice is godly... The balance of everything is perfect.

I'm able to eat this thanks to all your support. :curry and rice: [Photo of curry]

I had curry for lunch, so for dinner, it's curry.

[Toro, talking to Hello Kitty: "Huh, Kitty's mom's apple pie... Toro'd like to eat it too, meow."]
Because of how my Toro usually is, I can't read this in a pure way and it's making me concerned.

Seriously, it ain't no time for me to be having surgeries and stuff! I could've used that money to have live instruments!! You lousy piece of junk body!!

I like live instruments, and I've put a lot of time and money into making my MIDI sound live, but I feel like it'll never be a match for live recording... It's an obvious fact, but all I can do is improve my MIDI-ing skills to do it in an entirely self-contained way with my ideal synths... I want oil to suddenly gush out and bless me with enough funds to do live recordings for life...

When I listen to a lot of good songs, I recognize once more how I have way too many goals I want to level up to achieve before I die... Gotta level up quick, or I'll die first.

I want to hold a detailed presentation on my favorite songs...

When I encounter a song that's just too amazing, I go right past "I want to make songs like this" and think "I want to be a song like this." I'll live as this song...

What's it called... Arabic scale, or melodic minor scale? The way it weaves everything together is so sublime. The impression it gives of light shining among darkness, the feeling that if you expressed the word "backlight" with sound, it'd probably sound like this, is so amazing it makes me wanna cry.

When I heard Maaya Sakamoto-san's Backlight for the first time, I was so stimulated that I looped it about three times and laughed the whole time. (deranged)

When I find a song like this, I'm laughing up a storm in a super loud voice, and from an outsider's perspective I look completely insane.

I swear there are also plenty of songs that make me go "I can't, I love this!!!!!!" without being messy and constantly doing weird stuff.

I like this song of Mika Nakashima-san's a lot too... Too cute...
Mika Nakashima's "Fall In Love"

Because of my mysterious strong fixation on chord progressions, it's not often I encounter a song I can get extremely into, though that makes it all the more intensely moving when I encounter a song that goes far beyond my own expression, but still...

Isn't the hypermetric-y guitar that eats into the start of the second verse so wildly freeform??? I want to express myself like this...

I want to be able to make lethally amazing songs...

I'll say it again and again, but this song is lethally amazing, so I want you to listen to it.

Mika Nakashima's "LOVE NO CRY"

The gator's gonna die. [1 day left in The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days. (Or 2 days, since Day 99 wasn't posted until later in the day.)]

Jazz, pop, rock 'n' roll
Latin, ballad, future bass
Sounds played in a variety of genres
Complex harmonies and super-active bass
OSTER songs are great

(video clips of nuns singing gospel)

March 18th, 2020

I guess I'll try sitting in front of a computer for a bit today?

Looking at the "motsu" in motsunabe [giblets/innards] and thinking of my removed hernia.

Dinner was the motsunabe I got from my wishlist... :licking lips: Thank you!

You can listen to all sorts of artists with subscriptions now, and I'm looking up tons of songs I loved to death around high school, and I'm LOLing at how good my tastes have always been. (fierce singing-own-praises)

Isn't "an invisible apron fluttering, preparing for magic" such a super cute lyric???

You can even listen to the full version!!!
[maimai Deluxe PLUS] Ciel Bleu Marché / OSTER project feat. Kanatan [Coming 3/19 (Thurs.)!!]

Walking feels super good, I'm happy...

I started doing proper lyrics once I started doing Vocaloid songs, and I've delved into my own lyrical world in the 13 years since, so I'm really glad to have reached a point where someone needs them from me... I want to keep on doing my best with songs and lyrics!

I think this might be my first time providing just lyrics!! I'm really happy... :crying: :heart:

[Announcement] I provided the lyrics for Macaron Love, a song on Nanaka Suwa-san's debut album So Sweet Dolce releasing 4/15! :cake: :chocolate: :donut: :candy: :cookie: :sprarkles: The composition is by hisakuni-san! Thanks in advance. :bowing woman:

You can listen to the song here. :heart:
[Retweets official maimai Twitter. YouTube / NicoNico]

[Announcement] I provided the original song Ciel Bleu Marché for ongoing rhythm game maimai Deluxe PLUS! :apple: :eggplant: :carrot: :broccoli: :onion: :sparkles: With vocals by Kanatan!! It's a super cute song, so please play it! :heart:

S'okay if I make an announcement?!

My legs still hurt today, but it's better if I move them, so I'll go for a walk.

Today's lunch is the soup curry I received. :licking lips:

March 17th, 2020

I put my removed hernia on display next to my Nanachi figurine. (delirious)

Ordered an Airweave mattress.

This cushion is super nice! My back muscles can streeetch... I'm grateful.

Happy hospital release!!! A lot of stuff arrived!! Thank you!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :folded hands: :folded hands: I'll live!! [Photo of a bunch of the food gifts.]

I'm pitiful, so even at my age I'm quick to cry, and act spoiled, and go like "I don't wannaaa," but I want to carry out the things I should do regardless and keep things in balance...

It's really hard being forced into various efforts when you're just living, and if cursing someone or something would improve the situation, I'd gladly do it. But that won't help me one bit, so the most efficient thing's to calmly do what I can one thing at a time...

But I'm glad I was finally able to sleep soundly in my own bed... Thank you for your many replies. A lot of food from my wishlist had arrived when I got home, so I'll get to that later.

You should know if you read it, but it hasn't really been a complete recovery, and I'm still hurting and sleeping... :sniffle: Get better already...

I've learned just how tricky hernias are even with medical advances... I wonder, is it not possible in practice to fill up the gap in the invertebral disk itself? :sniffle: Super scared of a relapse...

Progress on my life.
Posted [Public Post] Leaving Hospital Report to Pixiv Fanbox!

Made it back home with ASIMO-level walking ability... Exhausted.

It's exuding a flavor!!! It's flavor!!!!!!

Welcome back, flavor!!!!!!!!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

Going outside after so long, my head's spinning from information overload.

Discharged. :tada:

When I went on a hot springs trip, too, I thought about how taking a trip there was a special event for me, but just daily life for the people working at the resort. Makes me think how everyone has their own life, and how absurd the volume of all the world's information is.

A cycle of hospitalizations to discharges... What's out of the ordinary for me is ordinary life for medical professionals.

I'm not an advanced creature, so I can't get around to being concerned with things in worlds I can't observe, and so while I'm alive, I want to feel good a lot.

After 100 years, everyone dies. Does that mean there's no point to anything you do, or is that why you should think it's fine to do whatever you like without fear? The longer you live, the more you realize what's important is feelings.

Want to become optimistic.

March 16th, 2020

Today's.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 5 to Pixiv Fanbox!

Your normal way of living unknowingly ingrains itself into your body. When I see some kind of shape moving, I naturally think "there's a cat there." There are no cats here.

On the fifth day of hospitalization, I've learned to not talk to myself, but I'm being released tomorrow.

I personally don't desire to be famous, as all I want is for my songs to be listened to a lot, but I guess I probably have to aim to be a certain level of famous for that.

Wanna cut my bangs.

Please fix the human body bug where the burden on your back when sitting is 1.4x what it is when you're standing. They clearly messed something up with the balancing.

I was in the middle of appealing to entertainment, but they called me for a CT scan. Here I go.

Both serious things and stupid things, I wanna do with full force! I love entertainment!! Entertainment!! It's meeeee!!! Smile at meeeee!!!

I'm sure no matter how much experience I amass and how much I grow, I'll always have goals and things I want to do ahead of me, and always think of myself as inexperienced, but still, I want to think in the end "I did all I could in my inexperience," right?

Someday I wanna be able to treat everyone else to chateaubriand...

As such, I'll post the video!!!
OSTER project - AI Want Your Love! Kiritan feat. AI Kiritan

As a composer, I secretly hope for the day to come that I can say "This song everybody knows is MY song!" (whether I'd say that or not aside) I want the Kiritan song to suddenly get 5 trillion views and YouTube to send me 50,000 solid gold shields.

When people ask what sorta stuff I'm doing, I'm always unsure how to answer. (I say it often has to do with games and so on.)

I guess being a musician is a unique occupation after all... People are surprised when I talk about it.

Since they put a respirator on you after surgery, your voice gets hoarse. That's harsh too.

I'm just constantly worrying about my neighbor here.

My neighbor came back... I wonder if everything went okay?

I had an awful time myself, so I'm going and getting concerned for them.

Finally time for my neighbor's operation... Be on your way... :crying:

Wonder if soaking in vinegar [o-su] would soften my body... Huh? Then I'd be O-SU project... Never mind.

Thinking about it, since I've spent most of my life with back pain, I always avoided excessive bending of my body due to fearing getting back pain, which probably made my body stiffen all the more.. What should I do now...?

I've always had bad posture, and my body is desparately stiff, so if I don't change those root issues, I'll likely have an unhappy life... Just living is tough, but there's so much I need to work hard at...

Yoshimura-san (not actually Yoshimura-san) told me I should really be careful about desk work for a while, so maybe I should force limits on my consecutive work hours... Set a timer or something. People who make music know how incredibly unproductive it is to limit your time and take a break when you're in the groove, but I can't go saying that... :pensive face:

Actually, most welcomely, there is someone giving chateaubriand [5000 yen/month], yet no sirloins as of yet. I suppose they're a very generous person who figured if they're going up to sirloin, they might as well go to chateaubriand... :pleading face: Thank you... :bouquet:

If I gain 10 cafe lattes [300 yen/month], that's a sirloin [3000 yen/month]. I gained a lot of cafe lattes. Thank you. :folded hands:
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The kid next to me's surgery is in the afternoon... I hope they'll do their best.

Taking a shower made me really tired... It's hard labor, that.

Today, I can take a shower.

This ordinary man in my rehab info sheets looks a lot like Yuyuuta-san.

A physiotherapist who looks like Takashi Yoshimura told me my body's way stiff for how young I am, and said at this rate, I'd get back pain for a different reason...

Thank you to everyone who's given their support for my hospitalization diaries. I'll buy a spare corset.

Even if I'm anxious, I just have to simply do the most I'm able to do, so it's the same as life, right?!

Uneasy about my hurting legs this morning. :pleading face:

March 15th, 2020

Today's.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 4 to Pixiv Fanbox!

I am concerned about the numbness I can't get rid of in my legs...

A plain old pervert if you just look at Twitter.

RT @hiroys_milkcafe OSTER Project, Fuwacina-san. The Vocaloid producer I aspire to the most. If you just look at Twitter, she's a plain old pervert, but the songs she makes are fun and beautiful, and it's one of my goals to be someone who can express themselves like this.
[Kagamine Rin] The Fox's Wedding [Original Song]

My body is recovering smoothly. I wanna be released quick, but I can't be hasty... I need to be careful to avoid a relapse after being let out, too. Truly regrettable.

Gave up.

I can't make music without Dominooooo!!

Ah, maybe I can just use this phone to make music? lol

Periods like this of getting your health sorted out are absolutely necessary for the future, and that's how I made up my mind to do it, and I know this couldn't be avoided, but maybe I just plain get impatient with myself when I'm not creating something. Not to say I'm so admirable or anything; I think I use that as an emotional foundation.

I absolutely can't ignore the existence and voices of people who need me even as I am, so I've gotta do my best until I can proudly stick out my chest as myself again. Taking care of health included.

Gotta properly make music again...

It's not like the world is waiting for me or anything, but what's with this scary feeling of being left behind by the world...

I got an explanation of what to do after leaving the hospital, and I have to spend the next three months post-surgery doing impersonations of Motoya Izumi.

I think this kid who moved into my room is having the same operation I did... Please... Please go well... Don't end up like me...

Got permission to wash my hair, too! Victory is mine.

Got all the tubes taken out of my bodyyy!

[Good News] The first breakfast in 24 hours has arrived. The day's first outstanding achievement.

March 14th, 2020

:sniffle:

I wanna go home.

Even 300 or 500 yen is fine, so please... But of course, 5000 yen would also be fine!!!! (forceful)

This series is ultra-realistic, so I think it's a compelling read. (fierce singing-own-praises)

This stuff is way too unordinary to tag as "Daily Life," surely? (late realization)

The part covering today.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 3 to Pixiv Fanbox!

I'm totally forgetting how I normally moved...

Finally succeeded at acting independently without a walker. My greatest achievement in 2 days.

I've been in the hospital on both White Day and Valentine's. :heart:

While holding in a sneeze to protect my wounds, I bent all my sore muscle spots and died.

I'm so lacking in amusement, the mere phrase "Opperman says" [looks a bit like "Oppaiman" (Boobsman) in Japanese] in an article about goats climbing cliffs is making me laugh uncontrollably. (Don't laugh at people's names.)

I wanna be healthy...

Because I'm moving my body carefully to protect the parts that hurt, I've got muscular pain all over... The battle continues. But actually, it hasn't even been 24 hours since the second surgery... You're kidding, right? Time feels endless...

[Toro, Sora, and three humans all saying the same thing: "Hundred-Crack Fist of the Deep Kiss!"]
Party animal get-togethers are too scary.

Why's there so much rice in hospital food?! It's a rice festival!

I'm a scientific person lacking in sensitivity, so when I hear the lyric "as many people as there are stars," I can't resist going like "there ain't THAT many!"

Another day OSTERing for an empty audience.

Having high hopes for the potential of my future health. (optimistic)

It's not coronavirus, but since I had surgery, I've got a fever.

I want a nurse who, if I said "If I used a walker, I bet I could go all the way to Proxima Centauri," would tell me "Hey now, let's shoot for around Mars first, okay?"

Hold on, by "it's snowing," you mean in Tokyo?!

The part covering yesterday, surgery day.
Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 2 to Pixiv Fanbox!

I was by myself in a big room, but two new girls who look like they play sports moved in... They're probably feeling uneasy not being allowed chaperones because of coronavirus, but they're hanging tough... Meanwhile, I, age 33, cried out "Thank you so much :crying: :crying: :crying:" in the operating room immediately after my re-operation was over.

For being able to go potty by myself the same day I started walking, I'm far superior to a baby.

It huuurts...

I'm a 3-year-old baby, so I want to be praised just for going potty on my own.

I'm scared of suddenly getting up, so I'm gradually raising the bed, like TORE. [Japanese game show where contestants are slowly wrapped like mummies from bottom to top.]

After last night's operation, they're like, can you eat breakfast already...? Can you walk already...? But I'm doing my best... I'm gonna recover...!

I've been in bed for a day and half now, so sure enough, my body's starting to ache... But my legs don't hurt! It's a wonderful thing for my legs not to hurt...

March 13th, 2020

I never want to have surgery twice in one day again, but I'm really glad... :sniffle: It was a long battle... :sniffle: It'll continue on, but I'll do my best until I can be released. :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:

I did it... I was anxious the whole time... I was so relieved when the surgery was over and the pain had completely gone that I cried... I'm glad I did my best... :crying:

I'm baaaaack!! It was fixed this time!!!! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

Here I go!

Don't tell me, the no-audience surgery has a day and a night showing? lmao

Not yet, lol

Here I gooo!

And I mean, the worst of the post-surgery pain was the pain from the newly-appeared hernia, so I think I'll be able to endure with that gone!! Right!

I'm totally thinking "Why me?!", but that won't do any good now that it's happened, so I'll just do what I must to get better...

If I've done it once, I can do it again! It's okay!

Can't I, you know, win the lottery or something...? :sniffle: :sniffle: :sniffle:

Why the heeeeeck... :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: Why've I gotta be super lucky about getting incredibly rare conditions and stuff?!?!?! lololol

So here I go agaaain... :halo:

That Time Removing A Hernia Made A Hernia Show Up And I Had To Get Surgery Again

Not really progressing the best, so having an MRI. :crying:

LOLing at how when the lady comes to my room now, her greeting is like "Heyooo!"

I don't learn, so for a repeat attempt, when she asked "You didn't apply any alcohol, did you?", I said "It's all good! I prefer to drink alcohol!", but I had bad timing and couldn't get her to pick it up... Our comedy duo's done for...

Some strong painkillers kicking in made me feel better, but thinking about how that terrifying pain might return when they wear off, I asked when I could use another round of painkillers. I did get the answer, but they basically told me it won't help to get too frightened, so just enjoy the time you can spend comfortably now, and good luck! So I'm gonna enjoy it. Boobs.

It was my bad, okay... Forgive me...

The nurse seems like she might be from Kansai, and has a nice energy when she talks, so when she asked "Is there anything you want?", I got a little silly and replied "Warmth..." Then it suddenly got like "Huh? Look, enough of that...", and I felt like I was gonna die.

But for real, I'm worried about how much areas that weren't operated on are hurting, but I did tell them about it, so now I just have to endure... Gotta believe.

When they ask me to rate my pain from 1 to 10, I want to say "5 gazillion!!", but I'm an adult, so I said 8.

I got a message and thought someone was checking in on me, but it was a notice about the Sushiro fair.

I can endure a little pain just fine.

The post-operation pain itself isn't as bad as I expected as long as I'm resting, but for some reason my legs reached maximum pain, and I thought they were getting cut off... (It's settled down now thanks to painkillers.)

Since before I even woke up from anesthesia, AI Want Your Love Kiritan has been playing in my head. Kiritan was protecting me. (??)

I'm alive... Hello.

reboot...

It's very soon.

The IV going in suddenly adds a lot to the "being a patient" feel...

I keep on saying "I'll do my best!", but it's the surgeons who are gonna do their best!!!

I slept soundly!

March 12th, 2020

Posted [Daily Life] Hospitalization Day 1 to Pixiv Fanbox! [I won't translate these since they're behind a paywall, but I'll include them for reference.]

I'm behind the times, so rather than the doctor saying there's an 80% chance I get better, I believe more in the fortune I drew at my New Year's shrine visit that said there's a 10 out of 10 chance I'd get better.

Let's think about fun things! Motsunabe! Wagyu beef! Curry! Food! Food, food! Tasty food!

Sorry for being scared all the time, but I'm scaaared... :smiling devil:

The night before surgery, with nothing to do, thinking I'd post a hospitalization log on Fanbox, but Pixiv won't open.

Yes, this hernia is a rebound caused by my happiness... No doubt about it...

Food's here!! It's here!! I'm saved!!

[Jun: "[corrupted text], March is already ending, hop. Sleeping with people, perviness... I haven't been able to get much done this month either..."]
It's more fun if you narrow down the parts to remark upon.

To think it hurts this much to not have between-meal snacks... This is bad...

This is probably the only day I'll be this energetic...

Because of this overwhelmingly kind hospital diet, I'm already hungry... :drooling:

[Photo of wearing hospital bracelet with a bomb emoji on it and flames] It's that thing that explodes if you try to run or remove it!! (bored person)

I'm wearing a Bloom Into You T-shirt to receive power from Yuu Koito.

It's a big room, but since I normally talk to myself a lot, I go "Woohoo!" just over food arriving and such, which is dangerous.

When the nurse lady asked if I had any concerns at the end of her explanation, I couldn't say how I'd be lonely not getting to meet anybody due to coronavirus, and that I was feeling helpless and uneasy... The letter I rewrote over and over stayed tucked away in my pocket...

Having people with different jobs come in one after another to explain things to me is making me feel the obvious fact of how hospitals work as a team.

This is today's scene. [Photo of a hospital bed.]

On the scene! I'm gonna make the greatest of sounds! (????)

March 11th, 2020

I know I said I'd put Fanbox updates on pause, but I'll probably be bored in the hospital, so I think I'll make diary posts! Skip past them if you can't handle that stuff.

I promptly went and got toasty using the bath salt from the wishlist.

Taken care of work, and settled preparations for hospitalization... You can look forward to me being thrown in the hospital tomorrow! How nice!

Thanks to your goodwill, I can have a feast on par with my medical expenses... Grateful... So grateful...

Just opened the list, and the last 10,000-yen wagyu beef has also been bought... :crying: :crying: :crying: Thank you, minister of wagyu beef... :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

The nutrients contained in OSTER songs such as augs, dims, and #9s are directly used by your brain, and induce excitement and happiness.

OSTER songs won't help cure coronavirus, but they will help cure your life, so please listen to them...

Two days from now! An no-audience operation! Be sure to watch! :sunglasses: (???)

I buy hentai with my own money :huff:

RT @Kyubeasy oster project bought hentai oster project bought hentai
Not hentai!!!!!!! This is very hot Curry!!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhh, all your love lets me live... I'll do my best... How nice... :crying:

I read the messages you sent, too! I'm glad!

Isn't that so fast?! Amazing, right?!

I'm not in the hospital yet, but my wishlist items arriiiiived! :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: Thank you, everyooooone... :crying: :crying: :crying: [Photo of a stack of Amazon boxes, and photo of some unpacked stuff, including a red box clearly marked "R18."]

I'm the kind of otaku who, when she sees something shining bright, adds darkness to gauge how bright that light is.

It's a necklace they bought while grinning together, so she tries to hold onto it, but even those fun memories make her chest tighten. That's Friendship... urk... (chronic illness)

I'm way too into fellow girls having matching things... Thinking about how they were probably grinning together as they shopped around makes me grin too...

Summer Idol...!!! Even if Miku and Luka started dating, I sense there'll be discord if Miku and Rin still have matching scrunchies. (attuned to womens' emotions)

[Retweets Summer Idol fanart with Miku (leaning into Luka's chest and full-on grabbing her boob) announcing she started dating Luka, while Rin and Len congratulate them from the back.]

I put all those Tohoku references in the Kiritan song because I sensed the passion the official account had for motivating Tohoku... I hope if you go on a trip to Tohoku, you'll encounter the origins of the references and go "So that's what that was!" :heart:

Tohoku is great!! I went to Yamagata last month, but when I'm better, I'll go to Fukushima too! :flex: [Retweets AI Want Your Love! Kiritan]

RT @t_zunko Tohoku companies being able to use Zunko, Itako, and Kiritan for free is also to fulfill that inherent purpose of motivating Tohoku. o(*･ﾛ･*)o

RT @t_zunko Today, March 11th, was the day of the Great East Japan Earthquake. Tohoku Zunko was born to motivate Tohoku, where the Great East Japan Earthquake struck. (◍•ᴗ•◍)

Feel like this is about when I started consciously using augs...
[Hatsune Miku] Flower Rail [Original Song]

Since I'm fumbling around by feel, of course growth is going to take time. But having these feel-based discoveries every time I make a song is really fun, so I can never stop making songs...

Speaking of perverse progressions, I often bring up Marginal as a reference, but back then, I didn't have any semblance of balance and went overboard experimenting like "I'll just try shifting these notes..." Lately, I think I'm finally able to make things a well-ordered perverse.

I bet if I keep on like this, I'll start to see even more different sights... Doesn't it feel like they're coming into sight?? Wanna go see them soon.

I've always been making attempts to insert strange progressions into pop, but if I trace the roots of me becoming as contrary as I am now, I feel like I started to awaken to something right around the interlude of Napo-Naporitan Match...

iTunes bugged out and created a best-of album for me containing 481 songs. [Photo of the OSTER-san's Best album shown as having 481 songs and a duration of 1.1 days.]

I've finally been able to pick up
The most wonderful thing yet

(in a bath filled with packs of money, holding beautiful women in both arms) [Lyrics from Noriyuki Makihara's "What I Wanted the Most."]

Maybe the reason I can't think of things I want is because what I want can't be bought on Amazon... (a tight, beautiful body, pretty two-fold eyes without needing eye putti, a healthy body that doesn't get sick, a life of never fearing getting lost, luck, fortune, status, prestige, etc.)

I'll overcome my surgery looking forward to eating tasty things... (who said she'd lose weight when it was over, i don't know her)

The reason I put so much food on there is because it might get tough to make things in the kitchen after surgery... (official answer)

I woke up, and the wishlist I selfishly packed with whatever I could think of was emptied out, and I'm gonna cry... Thank you, everyone. :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

March 10th, 2020

The day I've long been awaiting but never wanted to come is nearly at hand... But if it's already here, now I just need to endure. Simple...

Not getting as much work done as I thought... :crying: Tomorrow's my last day in this life, so I'll do my best not to leave any regrets...

My wishlist is gradually clearing out, and I'm seriously grateful... Thank you very much...

People who don't like spicy food often misinterpret me, but it's not like I eat spicy things as a joke. I eat them because they're delicious.

Huh, wait, the wagyu beef got bought?! Wagyu...!!!! Thank you, minister of wagyu... :crying: :crying: :crying: :folded hands:

Once, a fellow flat-chested friend told me how her chest shrank after childbirth, and I immediately blurted out "Even smaller?!" (We laughed about it a lot afterward)

Huh, what do I want, indeed...? What do you think I want...???? Boobs!!!!!

Even when I'm asked what I want, I answer "wagyu beef"... I have no greed... Only an appetite...

RT @itsuii98981 It's just food!!!!!
There was a cushion and stuff at first!!!!!! I swear, Totoro was really there!!!

[Retweeting wishlist] Stuff like the cushion that could help with my back and the bath salt was quickly snapped up, turning it into a simple glutton's wishlist...

The Gator Who Dies If They Don't Use augs

Isn't the Kiritan song amazing?! There's hardly any time to relax!!! It's the song of a diseased person who has to constantly be doing something weird or they die...

The Kiritan song's more popular on NicoNico than YouTube! Interesting how it differs depending on the song.

Someone bought the cushion on my wishlist?! I didn't get a notification?!

I've really gotten a clear picture of how I'm only thinking about food...

That time I made a wishlist and most of it ended up being food... :bowing woman: :bowing woman: :bowing woman: [Link to an Amazon wishlist, which is empty by now.]

I guess I probably should make a wishlist... :crying: :tears:

As I look over medical bills, I'm thinking "If I had this money, I could've eaten lots of delicious things at a fancy restaurant..." and making myself sad.

While taking care of surgery paperwork, my heart pounded so much that my stomach started hurting... I'm way too much of a chicken.

For people who don't have them yet, I've also got CDs! (direct marketing)

Sorry if that earlier series of tweets felt like I'm urging you to support me on Fanbox... :woman bowing: (I did gain supporters :heart:) But if you just saw that and simply thought "I want to support her," then I'll simply say "thank you." :heart:

Since you never know what'll happen in life, it's scary to think how you don't know when you might lose the things you have now. I know when that happens, no matter how painful it is, I'll just have to accept it and keep living, but it's horribly exhausting every time, so I just want to live peacefully...

I never want to make an announcement like "I'm quitting music to work at a desk job"! lol... I hope such a day never comes...

So out of a desire for everyone to know more about what I find beautiful, I make all sorts of videos, but I've only just started, and I'll be happy if I can slowly permeate through society! I'll continue to do my best.

What people think, what they enjoy, and what they spend money on is completely up to them, and I know all I can do is try to become an important presence to those people, but still! I get uneasy sometimes too, bein' human and all. :adult:

I want to always make music, and I'll continue to put in the effort to make that happen, but I don't want people to go like "she'll probably keep creating even if I ignore her." Not just for me, but for all creators in the world...

I've felt iffy about that for years, and finally hit the point of being able to say it.

Just because you keep working hard doesn't mean you'll be seen, and I'm sure my difficulties making opportunites for my name to be seen come from my own lack of effort and ability. But if you happen to see my name again after a long time and say I "revived" as if I wasn't active the whole time, that just makes me feel lonely, okay?!

March 9th, 2020

[Ricky: "Ahhh, I can't wait for the female body man show, ribbit."] [I'm guessing the intended template here is "[one]-man show."]
That's a strip tease.

Should I drastically increase my appearances on Twitter, or should I post recovery diary entries to Fanbox...? lol

I haven't been directly affected by coronavirus until now, but its biggest effect on me is how visits will be forbidden while I'm in the hospital... That makes me way too uneasy. (because I'm a baby)

It's the last spurt before hospitalization.

Posted [For Fanatics] Pf+Ba+Wind+Strings Mix: AI Want Your Love! Kiritan to Pixiv Fanbox!

Though of course my wind instruments and strings are just mega-self-taught!!!

But I do really want people to listen to those four parts...

I was thinking of throwing an alternate mix with just the piano, bass, wind instruments, and strings, but I worried it might be too niche. :thinking face:

RT @spmagnet8 Miss OSTER, what I want even more than chord talk is tips for composing wind and string instruments with a mouse... I'll pay if I have to...

Some say I was the first to coin the word "Miku-rapt." (?) [A word for people dependent on or addicted to Miku, evidently first said on her Radio in Love.]

If I had to perform the Kiritan song, I think I'd die.

[Photo: "YURI [Lilies]: 720kcal, 1,200 yen (+ tax)"]
720kcal

Really want to learn my lesson and stop deciding what to wear on instinct without checking the weather forecast.

Once again, my back has been in climax mode since this morning, but I'm going out for a girls' lunch...

Every time I listen to that Frozen 2 song, in my head I sing "lesbianing now."

I imagine there are people who think the more active the bass is, the better, but you see, the more active the bass is, the better.

I make songs like I'm riding a broom and flying through the sky with magic, so I wonder sometimes what I'd do if I suddenly forgot how to fly and fell. All of it is feelings, ingrained in my head and hands...

What's that...? Oh, sure, I just used a slash aug as a clincher before the chorus, what of it?

Though ultimately I think it's most important that it sounds good when you hear it, and think it's fine that way!

This time especially, I'm startled by the outbreak of augs during the song. It's not like I was enthusiastically going "I'll consciously use augs!" when I made it. I guess it's common when I'm trying to make a line that moves by half-tones that it accidentally forms augs in the process...

When I go back and analyze like this how it's actually constructed, I re-recognize how I truly do make songs by feeling alone...

I'm making a little bit of an explanation video that's not much of an explanation for the Kiritan instrumental, but seriously, this is really not much of an explanation.
[Picture of video: "Semi-explanation of the big highlights (key=F→Eb→Gb) Started it trying for some kind of key change again, but what the hey is this?"]

March 8th, 2020

Tohokuuuuu!! It's meeeee!!!

I like both Tohoku and Kiritan!!!!!

RT @2R6H8Yu_ki - Usui Department Store (Fukushima)
- Sanmangoku (mainly Fukushima)
- Station-Side Contact (Ace Contact) (Fukushima)
- York Benimaru (mainly Fukushima)
- Seagull Eggs (Iwate)
Could this be a Fukushima native...?

Listen to my progression!!!!!!!!!!

I made a "Kiritaaaaan!!! It's meeeee!!!!!" song. How many Tohoku references can you catch?! :chin hands:
YouTube / NicoNico
#AIKiritan #TohokuKiritan #CertifiedTohokuResident

The video's going up soon!

I'm gonna die before the gator does... Sniffle... :crying: :crying: :crying:

:gator: If you're gonna be aggressive with the bassline, you gotta start from the areolas, right?
:rat: You got that right!
5 Days Until Surgery [Parody of the Gator Who Dies After 100 Days format]

[Announcement] Today!! Is 7 PM okay?! Should we do 8 PM?! It's fine either way!! I'll be uploading my new song with AI Kiritan brimming with Tohoku love, "AI Want Your Love! Kiritan"! :baguette: :baguette: (there wasn't a kiritanpo one) Assemble, good kids and bad kids alike!! #AIKiritan #TohokuKiritan

My Miku-san who sang about "dying up to her fingertips your color," ten years later, is secretly and proudly cutting her nails short to prepare for yuri times...

No one else knows what will make your own life feel bountiful. People have their own things they hold precious and values they want to respect, too.

I feel my own maturity looking at how I can write lyrics like Friendship now, and how that's probably because I've grown as a person. The problem with having puberty way too late.

Like, looking at Miracle Paint now, doesn't it leave such an impression of a virgin's idea of a cute girl??? Dying up to my fingertips your color?????

That's probably why a lot of my older lyrics are fantastic with no hint of reality. I probably didn't understand people's feelings very well. Meanwhile, the more recent they get, the more raw and realistic I think they are... Though which one's better is a matter of taste.

I don't think it's like I was trying to present myself as diligent, I was really just a person who could only do what she was told. Even now, that way of life has become a habit, so I can't be flexible in my ideas when the time calls for it.

I always immersed myself in worlds which could be entirely solitary like study, music, and games, so before I knew it, my abilities to socialize and show sympathy and live in harmony were being utterly lapped. I still make a lot of mistakes, but it feels like it's only in the past few years I've been able to build meaningful relationships with others...

The other day, I was told a story about "once, I skipped school and (etc.)", and even if that isn't a commendable thing, I felt a kind of aspiration or envy about having that kind of experience. About how I was only able to live following predetermined rules in a pre-established world...

March 7th, 2020

murmur twins from O to W contains all the components humans need to live. It can't cure cancer yet, but it will.

Until a month ago, I was thinking "Can't I get up to 30,000 followers? :heart:", yet 40,000 is in sight now. Life is amazing... Nice round numbers! :heart:

I'm serious.

I want to be invited by a lecturer at a music vocational school or something, and when the curtains rise, loudly speak "Please aggress my areolas" and get banned. [Probably based on "semeru" (attack) being usable both in a musical sense and in a sex way.]

If I can brag a little, I'm in Guinness as the person who makes the world's most OSTER-san-like music.

It's pleasant when both you and others are in a mindset where you can casually praise people!

Everyone seems to think living is just ordinary, but all kinds of anxieties and suffering befalls you endlessly just in the act of living, so I think being able to keep piling on day after day amid that is a really amazing thing.

Also, people think I must absolutely love thrill rides, but I can't handle them... The problem is that they really scare me every time, but people think I'm really seeking that kind of stimulus... I guess they would... (i like spicy food)

Huh?! You're great just for living! But on top of that, you work, and make a living only on the money you earn?! Isn't that too incredible?! Can I get a Nobel Amazing Prize?!?!

I wonder, is an only child characterized by acting free and selfish?

Is there not some better Japanese than "douyou ni tashika rashii"? I feel like there are probably people who don't feel comfortable with probability thanks to that bizarre phrase... I was always super bad with probability...

Isn't it tough remembering what's eldest-daughterness and second-daughterness and youngest-daughterness? I managed to learn blood personality types, but there's so much to learn. I'm me-esque. They're similar-esque. ["Douyou ni tashika rashii," a phrase meaning "they're equally likely," that uses the same "rashii" I'm translating as "-esque."]

While out drinking last night, I was told I'm eldest-daughter-esque, but I'm a second daughter. Good morning.

March 6th, 2020

OSTER-san's Surgery Vol. 1

"Like" is such a handy and cruel word!!

Please listen to Friendship!!!!!!!!

RT @KamchaUral321 OSTER-san generally speaks for and makes into song my feelings on yuri, so all I can say is "please listen to Friendship."

name of phenomenon where you're with someone who's fun to be with and smile so much your cheek muscles hurt

When I'm cognizant of my surgery, I get super scared, so I'll try to spend the time not being cognizant of it.

Today's Exhibition
Sciatica VS Muscle Pain
Time: March 6th
Place: My body

Masseur appearing in an adult video: "What would you like me to loosen up today?"
Sharp AV actress: "The world's stiff and rigid values, please."

[Jun: "Sometimes you need to do sexy stuff to confirm each other's friendship, hop."]
Progressive values.

March 4th, 2020

Think rationally and have your hernia fixed, dummy.

Listen to "murmur twins from O to W"... Please... If Shenron appeared before me right now, I'd totally wish for all humanity to listen to "murmur twins from O to W"...

Want to make an Oil Baron tier on my Fanbox to be supported with.

At any rate, I'll do as much as I'm able to! Once I'm out of the hospital, I'll put on stamina and increase my performance. I'll do my best and live.

I want to make more lecture videos, but between making a Kiritan video and finishing up work matters, my hospital date will come up in the blink of an eye...

I used tags that I figured absolutely wouldn't exist, but felt such a sense of defeat when some already did...

#WannaConnectWithOilBarons #OilBaronGirl #OilBaron #WhiskMeAwayToDubai

I wrote "prerelease," but I plan to release it relatively soon...

Posted [Prerelease] AI Want Your Love! Kiritan on Pixiv Fanbox!

(wanting people to hear it very badly)

Wonder if it'd be okay to prerelease the Kiritan song on Fanbox...

Yes, let's say it's done. The song is done. It's done!

So, about the song. It's done, you see.

What I like about The Gator Who Dies After 100 Days is that frank friendship where you can go "hey, why not!" and suddenly decide to go out for ramen...

I want cute clothes, but I really want a healthy body that'll allow me to properly experience the fun of picking and buying cute clothes...

I'm always at a loss when I'm asked what I want... Right now, maybe a zero-gravity cushion that wouldn't even break an egg if you sat on it? Also, MODO Drum... Geez, so it's synths after all...

I'm not that greedy, so I want living expenses. (urgent)

Ethics are like currency. There's an absolute sense of security in having them, but in places where they're not in use, they become worthless scraps of paper.

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